It's been one of those weeks. Long and relatively uneventful, but the things that have happened have only served to leave me an angry, bitter, frustrated, and irritated human being. I guess things add up and it's the time of the year where things come to a boiling point. I dont know what it is, but I find my self snapping at people around me. I cant remember ever been quite this irate at the world. Guess it's been a steady emotional downhill since Monday morning. NOt sure if the stress of boards has finally hit or the fact that it still seems impossible to stimulate interest of any sort in these 'causes' I've been trying to promote through med school events. I know everyone's busy, but I find it sad that a free lunch often stimulates more interest than 30 min talking with a young teen with HIV. We do what we can to put the two together by serving lunch at our events, but push comes to shove a lot of the recruiting is telling people that we have such and such food at the event. I guess I can't expect the same priorities in other people's lives. Maybe I should shift my priorities around so that this 40 grand/year education is more at the forefront rather than these international health issues I spend time with. After all, what kind of doctor will that make me, and also won't these issues still be around in 10 yrs when i finally am finished with my medical training and have "time" to commit to them?
I guess this isn't the only thing that's been bothering me. People in general just seem to be letting me down these days. I hate it when people make promises they dont keep and not only that forget to tell me until it's too late. Perhaps I just need a break (another one). Take a breather and some me time away from medical school, international health, the steiner house, and just bury myself for a few days in a library with my USMLE books. so that's my plan. ¶ 18:10